This, in some ways, is a window to my soul: my book is open. This is an honest reflection where I embrace the highs and lows, ups and downs, roller coaster of emotions I am often riding, the good, the bad, and the extremely ugly...but this is me, and this is my adventure...By revealing myself honestly I hope to inspire and encourage, because we all struggle sometimes and it's nice to know we're not alone. This is my experience as a small town girl living in a big city, trying to make my way while taking lots and lots of detours...
March 29, 2011
For reasons too unbearable to disclose, I am in a rather fowl mood at the moment. I'd like to keep this one to myself, but I'll say this, rejection is a B*@$*!!!
Okay, onward and upward. When life gives you lemons, make lemonade; what doesn't kill you makes you stronger; when you get screwed in the @$$.....okay okay, sorry, now I'm done. It's just that at this particular moment I feel like going into my car and screaming at the top of my lungs; I wanna cry out (dramatically of course) "WHY WHY WHY!?!?!?!"
I'm at a crossroads in my life - thought things were moving forward in one, albeit bumpy, direction, only now my life has abruptly veered off course and I just don't know what to do. The very idea of figuring things out again puts me in a cloud (a very thick one with no sign of blue sky). *Deep. Long. Sigh. Again. Deep. Long. Sigh.*
I feel as if I need to mourn. Mourn for the loss of possibilities that are no longer possible. Mourn for the loss of my innocence as adulthood brings wave upon wave of "reality." Mourn over the happiness that is too often fleeting.
This sadly is what I am feeling right now. I know in my core that the possibilities are still there and always will be, my innocence is not the same as when I was a child but I accept and embrace this, and happiness is felt so profoundly simply because it is not constant - if we never knew the feelings of sadness, we could never fully appreciate happiness.
This is life. It does not, no, it NEVER goes according to plan. Who we are is determined by our reactions to the hiccups. Today I am sad. Tomorrow I'll be okay. Soon after, I'll be stronger than ever!
March 25, 2011
March 23, 2011
March 20, 2011
INCREDIBLE English made beaded vintage purse, super awesome corked bottle (broke the bank at .25 cents hah!!!) - would look lovely as is or with some fresh flower sprigs and a bit of lavender. I had also been searching high and low for a tan/brown leather belt - can't believe how hard it was to find in the color I was looking for, but viola, there it was! And a bargain at 5 bucks. The large purse on the right by a Parisian watch designer, Charles Hubert was not purchased at this flea market, but I did recently find it at a vintage thrift store and am in love with the color and soft leather, yay! I shamelessly use it as a laptop purse, I don't even care how silly I look prying my laptop out of its tight grib everyday...it fits. I swear!
March 19, 2011
March 18, 2011
Beer AND water...I know, good thinkin!
|the art of the "kissy face" after a couple pints...|
|Leah and Chad|
|Mom and me|
|Irish Coffee happiness|
March 17, 2011
I also walked into the path of a highly poisonous King Brown snake and barely escaped with my life only to nearly kill myself from the anxiety of losing my wallet in the middle of Australia (I was in Alice Springs, literally smack dab in the middle); I experienced fear of not having a place to sleep at night, and at one time found myself fighting with airline attendants to let me fly! It was an incredible trip to say the least, but challenging no doubt.
While traveling I made sure to send out emails to my friends and family back home. I chronicled my journey and I couldn't be more grateful for the interaction I had with those who wrote back to me. At many times they brought me so much strength.
I thought it would be fun to take a look at some of these emails from my trip. They offer a true reflection of what I was going through at the time.
|Check out my sandwich making skills!|
|My awesome co-worker, Svenia!|
March 16, 2011
|Blogging : )|
I like how the English say, "Let's go on holiday!" Because even though it may not technically be a holiday, for you it should be. We all deserve to indulge every now and then right!? I say, "that's right!" Can I get'a Amen!.....whooops, easy to get carried away.
But truly we can all afford to allow moments of hedonism to slip in occasionally, it's a matter of survival I say!
Anyone have their own fun ideas/tricks for evading the stressors that life sometimes throws at us?
March 14, 2011
There is nothing like a new pair of yoga pants - preferably the kind with zero bottom visibility please - to get you going in the morning! But geeez luweeeeez are they expensive. Target is the cheapest place I've found to get any gear, but I'm never very happy with their products.
I have recently discovered yet another awesome online shopping site, it's grotesque I know, but gahhhh I love them! And this one is really cool: ideeli.com > I found it through Shefinds.com (also a cool site/blog) < Anyway blah blah yada yada, they are selling awesome exercise gear for less than the prices at target, and the best part is that they are made from BAMBOO and ORGANIC COTTON! This is what all the fuss from me is about. The only thing I am disappointed in, is that the products are imported, but that doesn't always have to be a bad thing. Don't get me wrong, I love target - I buy a new pair of cute sunglasses there at least once a month due to my terrible habit of constantly losing my shades - but really it's a ginormous corporation with questionable policies especially in regards to overseas factories/treatment of employees. Which unfortunately, is similar to many other American companies.
But these are made from Bamboo! Yay! Here is the link incase anyone is in dire need like myself....once you get that great pair of cropped pants on, there's no stopping you!
ideeli.com Green Apple Active Sale
March 13, 2011
Got to run my family just arrived! I've only been SF a month but they can't stay away : ) And I couldn't be happier to see them.